Subeta Confessions

Subeta has been my haven since I was fifteen. Loved the place, even when the servers were so slow a single wizard quest could take five minutes or more. I made some of my closest friends there, used the site to sharpen and hone the skills I’m going to be living off of and to create characters that gave me hours of joy, and for all its flaws I stayed because I could tell there was love in the site and among its users.

Now I’m twenty-one, and I don’t know how to feel about the place anymore. There’s still a lot I hold dear about the place, and I count myself blessed with my friends from there. But it feels hollow to me now. Maybe I’ve just fallen prey to nostalgia goggles, or I’ve just gotten older, but it isn’t a place I’d try to get people to join anymore. The art is still amazing (certainly much better than it was when I first joined), and the freedom we’re given heartening, but the magic is gone, for me.

I confess to being a “pet person” and I know that alone will probably invalidate my opinion to some people. I acknowledge Subeta doesn’t want to be a pet site anymore (at least, that’s how it’s seemed to me for a few years now) and that is why the focus has been shifted. HAs make money. Okay, that’s fine. I understand. The site needs money. And (you knew it was coming) I can even see the logic behind the CWs. I know they make money hand over fist, and that’s fantastic for the site! But they’ve been handled so poorly from the get-go, and there have been so many fights breaking out over it that it just seems like it would have been better to never open that can of worms. No one person is to blame for this, in my mind, but it just … doesn’t seem worth it.

I miss the days of clearings and new things happening with pets, and when the biggest drama around was DBM making a twit of herself, not CW skullduggery and fighting about art and people backbiting and badmouthing one another over pet names, etc. Maybe Subeta’s just in its awkward teenager stage and the site will get better without losing sight of what it used to be. Maybe I’m just feeling stagnant and the upcoming Valentine’s events will make me feel better. Maybe I’m full of shitty tl;dr and need to fuck off back to my dumb pet corner! And, maybe it’s just me, I dunno.

I just wanted to get that off my chest. I don’t really expect for anyone to agree with me or for anything to change. That’s all.